Triticum Turgidum

Lying Dormant and Waiting to Bloom Since 2005

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Location: The Prairie, Illinois, United States

I am a beauty-loving ambidextrous higher-order primate who learned transcendental meditation at 7, statistical analysis at 23, tap dancing at 30, and piano at 35. I tolerate gluten, lactose, and differences of opinion, but not abuse. Or beets.

Monday, July 14, 2008

It Didn't Work


I've been on heavy doses of different hormones for 12 weeks straight. For the IUI, I did 2 weeks on Bravelle, then 2 on Prometrium and Ovidrel; then I immediately went into the IVF with 3 weeks on birth control pills, 2 1/2 weeks on Bravelle, Menopur, and Lupron, and 2 1/2 on Prometrium and Ovidrel.

I'm sure the effect of the hormones is reponsible for the scary thoughts and feelings I've been having. It's more than just disappointment over not being able to get pregnant. I'm holding out hope that these thoughts and feelings go away once the hormones are out of my system, without further need for chemical intervention. I miss my old self, and I think Mini-Wheat and Mr. Wheat do too.

Friday, July 11, 2008

And Now for Something Lighter (and Crunchier)

In the wee hours of an insomniac morning I wandered over to Jonniker's blog and read a thread about maggots, which led--once I'd fallen back asleep--to a dream that they were crawling out of a boil on my face. Which led--perhaps because my mouth is on my face--to an intense desire to learn about the flavors of different bugs. Here's what I found, courtesy of a report from the University of Nebraska:

Grasshoppers, termites and grubs are not typical American cuisine, but many cultures eat insects with great relish. What do bugs taste like? Here is a sampling...

--Raw termites taste like pineapple and cooked termites have a delicate, vegetable flavor.

--Grubs (which are larvae) of palm weevils taste like beef bone marrow.

--Fried agave worms (canned in Mexico) taste like sunflower seeds.

--Diving beetles (available in Chinatown in San Francisco) taste something like clams.

--Fried grasshoppers taste like sardines.

--French-fried ants (imported from Colombia) taste like beef jerky.

--A praying mantis, fried over an open fire, tastes like shrimp and raw mushrooms.

--Fried wax moth larvae taste like corn puffs or potato chips.

--Fried spiders taste like nuts.

--Fried baby bees taste like smoked fish or oysters.

Unappetizing? Consider that honey, a food that is appropriate in our culture, has been swallowed and regurgitated hundreds of times by honey bees. Source: Invisible Bugs and Other Creepy Creatures That Live With You.

Hungry? Here's a list of 32 edible insects you can buy online. carries Bacon & Cheddar Cheese Flavored Crickets. In the spirit of snappy commercialism, they're called Crick-ettes. (Crick-ettes also come in Salt 'n' Vinegar and Sour Cream & Onion flavors.) You can also buy Larvets and Roasted Pregnant Crickets and Smokey BBQ Scorpions.

At a site called Candy Favorites, you can buy Amber InsectNside Toffee Candy, Butterfly Candy, Cricket Lick-It Lollipops, and, once again, Larvets, here in "tasty Mexican Spice flavor." You are enthusiastically advised to note that "Larvets are now in a larger serving size!" ----SO! Speaking of pregnant crickets, I took a pregnancy test yesterday and it came up very faintly positive due to the residual hcg in my system. I'm taking another tomorrow to see if the line is any darker, which would suggest that my body is making its own hcg. At this point I suspect I'm not pregnant, for several reasons, one of which is the fact that I've seen all these images of edible insects, including the locust tacos (pictured), and haven't once had the urge to throw up.

Friday, July 04, 2008

Happy Independence Day!

...from one who knows from independence.

Tuesday, July 01, 2008


So, those two embryos? They were graded on a scale of 0-4, 4 being perfect and rare, 3 being very good, 2 being average, 1 being poor, and 0 being "is this human?".

The better of my embryos merited a grade of 2, with 7 cells and only a small amount of fragmentation. (Fragmentation happens when the cells in the embryo eject undesirable material.) This embryo is my C Student. S/he has potential, but isn't quite there:

The other one, with only 4 cells and lots of fragmentation, didn't receive a grade. Or maybe it did, but the fertility team made the merciful decision not to tell me. I think of this embryo as my Bad Seed:

They assured me that embryo quality isn't an indicator of genetic normalcy, and that lots of perfect, beautiful children are born from meh embryos, which is why they transferred both. I'm praying that one of them takes, and although I expect it to be the C Student, I'm kind of pulling for the Bad Seed. Doesn't everybody love a rags-to-riches story?